I've found myself moaning and groaning about certain aspects of my life that are causing me to go through much turmoil. I have stared in the face of adversity and quaked in my boots. I have allowed life's circumstances to dictate my thoughts and my actions. I have ceased to remain proactive, and rather, have found myself being reactive.
My grandson was hurt in a freak accident and wears a complete body cast. My husband has been unemployed. We didn't have enough money to pay our bills. Creditors have called. I struggle with marketing and promotion of my recently released book, Guardian. My work on my work-in-progress is languishing.
I could have been and have been glum and morose. I have allowed the circumstances of life overtake my mind and emotions.
Shame on me!
It has been during a time of prayer and reflection that I saw what I was doing. I began to see that I had so much more to be thankful for than the negative I was focusing on.
Even though it means he is going to be gone during weekdays and evenings, my husband now has a new job. My grandson has gotten used to his cast and is lively and happy (to a certain extent) once again. Our creditors have made deals with us that we can afford. National politics are a disaster.
But more than that, I can see where my pessimism and reactionary words and actions have actually contributed as much or if not more than the stress I have been experiencing!
"Wake up, o my soul, and hope thou in God," the psalmist cries. Why? Because in hope there is a chance at resolution. At hope, we see where we've overcome in the past and have hope for the future. Who else but God can give substance to our hope? It is in hope that I find reassurance and salvation for my thoughts, my dreams.
It is hope that has caused me to become proactive once more, and hope that has caused me to slough off the thoughts and emotions that are not productive, but rather were bent on destroying my optimism about the future.
I have a hope for a better future for me. I have a hope for a better future for my family. And, yes, I even have hope of a better future for our nation--a hope that supersedes what I see physically with my eyes and hear with my ears. "Hope thou in God for He is yet the strength of thy countenance."
What about you? Are you reaction, or proactive? What place does hope have in your life?